Teetering on a fence

I'm

* finally moved out of LA.

* excited about the future.

* scared to death.

* looking forward to many, many, planned and spontaneous adventures. 

* afraid of disconnecting.

* wishing I had one of those screen privacy filters for my laptop.

* in a coffee shop on Haight in San Francisco. 

* happy here for now.

* leaving Friday.

* anxious to sit down at a piano and stay there for two weeks.

* so thankful for Tennille and all my friends and family.

* all aflutter about many things.

* disappointed it didn't work out.

* certain of nothing.

* horny.

* on the brink of tears.

* feeling better than I have in months.

* hopeful.

* reluctant.

* apprehensive. 

* second-guessing every thought.

* not quite forgotten.

* definitely not forgetting.

* up.

* down.

* embracing.

* rejecting.

* ungrounded.

* holding tight.

* slipping.

* more confused than ever.

* ready to be done.

* willing to start over.

* teetering on a fence.